I love my daddy he always leaves me coffee in the morning :)

Awkwarrrrd

Don't you find it funny Case?
That every time we're on the phone or talking on xbox it's awkward?
I was going to call you about this but that would be pretty ironic huh?
I figured you'd read this eventually.
I find it kinda weird that we can hold together a good friendship when we don't even talk other the phone, text, or talk on xbox unless it has to do with plans.
I think it might just be a good quality that we have I guess.
It doesn't so much as bother me really, just makes me wonder.
You know that every time we do talk on the phone or xbox we always have some reason to leave?
The weird thing is that I hate talking on the phone, but I have no problem talking on xbox.
I think that's what makes it awkward.
Or maybe it's just that weird vibe come back to haunt you :)

Just Random Shit.

I love how you think you really can't get closer to someone then, you do.
I've been hanging with Jason a lot lately, and it's pretty awesome actually.
He told me he'd take me out driving soon even though I'm not supposed to.
We've been talking all about these new bands we're listening to.
He's trying so hard to get us Blink tickets.
I feel like he tells me everything.
Like our conversations in the car will last forever.
He wants to get me a job where he works, because apparently it would be so easy.
And really fuckin good money:)
But the thing is that I live an hour away from him, and he lives like 45 minutes away from his work.
So yeah, not so much.
Bugs are biting me even though I'm inside :(
I chilled with Case and Mish on Wednesday/ Thursday.
Met some cool bands at the mall.
And now I'm planning on going downstairs and getting a new gamertag.

..some things need fixing

Is everything going to go back to normal when school's over?
I feel like the odd one out in our little threesome thing.
Whatever you call it.
It sucks feeling like your friends are becoming so distant.
I wish school would end already so I can fix it.
I need to get my mind off of everything pointless here in my house.
I need fun.
I'm worried about not going to dad's tomorrow night again, because I was planning on giving him his Father's Day present.
Now that'll have to wait.
Again.

You know what just made me really happy?That I just got free sour patch kids from a kid in my study :D I love life.

Conspiracies suck.

How come everytime I'm in a good mood my family just feels the need to ruin it?
I swear it's a game to them.
I think they're all a conspiracy.
Like one giant group of assholes God uses just to make me sane.
Cause if they weren't like this then I probably would be.. well I don't know actually.
I could've been anything if things where different.
I could've had less of a backbone.
I could've been a total bitch.
I could've been a major slut.
Anything.

Whether I try to or not I'm just a bitch.Jess told me about a month ago that I look like I could beat someone up.That's not good.That means I look like a bitch.