..some things need fixing

Is everything going to go back to normal when school's over?
I feel like the odd one out in our little threesome thing.
Whatever you call it.
It sucks feeling like your friends are becoming so distant.
I wish school would end already so I can fix it.
I need to get my mind off of everything pointless here in my house.
I need fun.
I'm worried about not going to dad's tomorrow night again, because I was planning on giving him his Father's Day present.
Now that'll have to wait.
Again.

You know what just made me really happy?That I just got free sour patch kids from a kid in my study :D I love life.

Conspiracies suck.

How come everytime I'm in a good mood my family just feels the need to ruin it?
I swear it's a game to them.
I think they're all a conspiracy.
Like one giant group of assholes God uses just to make me sane.
Cause if they weren't like this then I probably would be.. well I don't know actually.
I could've been anything if things where different.
I could've had less of a backbone.
I could've been a total bitch.
I could've been a major slut.
Anything.

Whether I try to or not I'm just a bitch.Jess told me about a month ago that I look like I could beat someone up.That's not good.That means I look like a bitch.

I just feel like such an asshole today.I got mad at my dad for doing nothing.I feel like I don't help my brother out enough.And I always make everyone mad at me

On the bus.Dad's pissing me off.I don't think he's gonna pick me up this weekend which is gonna piss me off.And I can't control it.These kids smell like piss.

Im in a dellimma?Jason needs me to babysit tonight and it's dad's night.I don't wanna skip on dad again and I don't wanna skip out on Jason cause he needs me.