Fml. Sitting in this classroom bored out of my mind. Cuz my original classroom is taken over by juniours

And its pretty bad since i talk about how much these people bother me when I do the same things.

I cant stand: People who arent confident(me), people who cant make decisions(me), people who send mixed signals(me),people who exagerate(me)

Ive com to the conclusion that im really just one big hypocrite.

Mixed Emotions.

I hate Mod G.
And I've been hating a little less as the days go by.
But I still hate it.
Especially now.
Especially today.
If you know me..
You'll know that when I get angry at someone, I'll embarrass them.
But I say that I'll fuck someone up.
Not really...
I'm a little person on the inside.
It takes a lot to get me into a fight.
A lot of emotion..
So today in Mod G.
Which is my English class.
I was just sitting listening to Mr.Howe read Lord of the Flies.
When i hear crumpling plastic.
Like a piece of a wrapper to something.
And then I feel something hit my hair.
(Oh and I'm wearing a hooded sweatshirt)
So immediately I know whats going on.
And just in case I'm wrong, I don't wanna look like a phsyco.
I don't look back, I don't try to see what they're doing.
Until I keep hearing that plastic.
And keep hearing it.
So I lean just slightly so I can see out of the corner of my eye.
The asshole sitting behind me is doing it.
And my nigga Chad in the corner over there is like
"guys! whatthefuck! you guys are such douche bags."
After a little bit I heard them say " Chad are you mad at us?"
Which made me feel a little better.
And the kid Brenden (who's really hot)
Was like "Don't pay attention to what he says he's a jerk" (pointing to either Cameron or that asshole sitting in back of me)
Didn't make me feel any better.
I didn't expect that kid behind me to do that.
Fuck. I didn't do anything to him!
I really hope it wasn't Cameron telling him to do it...
(The blond Cameron not my Cam).
But like I said up there ^ I was so full of mixed emotions at that moment that I really wanted to get up and punch him in the face.
Or at least throw those plastic things back in his face and yell "Whatthefuck did I do to you?!"
It was bad too because after it happened, and it took the things out of my hood.
And I was just trying to read with the class so I didn't smack this Motherfucker.
I realized I was shaking 'cause i was balancing my head with my hand and my elbow was on the desk, but i couldn't even keep it still 'cause my hands where shaking so bad.

I love my daddy he always leaves me coffee in the morning :)

Awkwarrrrd

Don't you find it funny Case?
That every time we're on the phone or talking on xbox it's awkward?
I was going to call you about this but that would be pretty ironic huh?
I figured you'd read this eventually.
I find it kinda weird that we can hold together a good friendship when we don't even talk other the phone, text, or talk on xbox unless it has to do with plans.
I think it might just be a good quality that we have I guess.
It doesn't so much as bother me really, just makes me wonder.
You know that every time we do talk on the phone or xbox we always have some reason to leave?
The weird thing is that I hate talking on the phone, but I have no problem talking on xbox.
I think that's what makes it awkward.
Or maybe it's just that weird vibe come back to haunt you :)

Just Random Shit.

I love how you think you really can't get closer to someone then, you do.
I've been hanging with Jason a lot lately, and it's pretty awesome actually.
He told me he'd take me out driving soon even though I'm not supposed to.
We've been talking all about these new bands we're listening to.
He's trying so hard to get us Blink tickets.
I feel like he tells me everything.
Like our conversations in the car will last forever.
He wants to get me a job where he works, because apparently it would be so easy.
And really fuckin good money:)
But the thing is that I live an hour away from him, and he lives like 45 minutes away from his work.
So yeah, not so much.
Bugs are biting me even though I'm inside :(
I chilled with Case and Mish on Wednesday/ Thursday.
Met some cool bands at the mall.
And now I'm planning on going downstairs and getting a new gamertag.

..some things need fixing

Is everything going to go back to normal when school's over?
I feel like the odd one out in our little threesome thing.
Whatever you call it.
It sucks feeling like your friends are becoming so distant.
I wish school would end already so I can fix it.
I need to get my mind off of everything pointless here in my house.
I need fun.
I'm worried about not going to dad's tomorrow night again, because I was planning on giving him his Father's Day present.
Now that'll have to wait.
Again.

You know what just made me really happy?That I just got free sour patch kids from a kid in my study :D I love life.

Conspiracies suck.

How come everytime I'm in a good mood my family just feels the need to ruin it?
I swear it's a game to them.
I think they're all a conspiracy.
Like one giant group of assholes God uses just to make me sane.
Cause if they weren't like this then I probably would be.. well I don't know actually.
I could've been anything if things where different.
I could've had less of a backbone.
I could've been a total bitch.
I could've been a major slut.
Anything.

Whether I try to or not I'm just a bitch.Jess told me about a month ago that I look like I could beat someone up.That's not good.That means I look like a bitch.

I just feel like such an asshole today.I got mad at my dad for doing nothing.I feel like I don't help my brother out enough.And I always make everyone mad at me

On the bus.Dad's pissing me off.I don't think he's gonna pick me up this weekend which is gonna piss me off.And I can't control it.These kids smell like piss.

Im in a dellimma?Jason needs me to babysit tonight and it's dad's night.I don't wanna skip on dad again and I don't wanna skip out on Jason cause he needs me.

It's raining cats and dogs :) I really just wanted to say that.

I'm pretty pissed that Sarah's not gonna be at dad's tonight.I'm on the bus and annoying people in the back are screaming.And they're highschoolers, immature?

So Jordans in a pissy mood I'm guessing and he yells at me when I'm just standing there waiting for my seat. Wtf? He said. "I don't care!" as he got up.

Sitting in study.Bored as fuck.And I really had a sucky morning.I had bad vibes in the cafe.Which I neer have.And I had an asshole in my seat again in Spanish.

Shoot Me Please?

I've had a very interesting couple of days.
Sean's been high except for today.
I got my hair cut and it came out like shit.
Case hit me in the face with her tit on the bus the other day.
Haha.
Thanh kicked me out of his locker and shoved the rest of my shit into some empty locker.
I hit my head on the phone on the wall in my homeroom yesterday.
My mom is officially bi-polar in my book.
I really wanna see my cousin for some reason.
I also really wanna go to Mikeys show this weekend and just chill outside the whole time.
I had an awful sub in Math today.
I actually got a bunch of work done in Science.
And now I'm starting to get a headache..